Broken Smile

its good to stay positive

but putting up a smile when you are really not okay,

can be very unhealthy 

or is it its human nature, to hide uncomfortable things away.. =/

a friend used to tell me
if u deny a feeling, it actually takes you longer to get over it.
in the end, people who manage to move on are people who embrace it

for the other group that can act as if nothing happened
these people may look tough on the outside
but they are the one is easily hurt/have been hurt before
fearing the unknown and wanting to always be in control of their emotion

they can put on a mask all they want,
but in the inside.. they are not going anywhere...
becuase they've refused to accept it in the first place =(

so, next time if u spot a friend putting up a tough mask..
tell him its okay to feel vulnerable very now and then,
becuase each and everyone of us is no superman,
in fact, even superman have his kryptonite
if you fell, i'm there to catch you =)
so stop being such a tough-ass! XP


"but be careful though..
they don't like people to know, that's why they hide it in the first place
so..they might be defensive about it.
you need to let them know that you are sincere in hearing them out"

i used to wonder what broken smile actually is

now i know.

gotta learn to let it out, got it?

alright,  what am i talking about in this joyous season =.=

Happy Chinese New Year chingus

working on a supprise right now..=)

stay tuned!

good night.

New Year-First Step

2012 is here! i already made my first step to this year resolution - making song covers =)

Dedicated Count on Me by Bruno Mars to my friends.
I must say the new mic was really fun~

 anyways, back to uni today,
hmm the thing about returning to college is that i am really going to miss home.
it just feels different here. the atmosphere.
to counteract this anxiety, i always bring something from home to college whenever i can
apples, oranges, bread, simple things like this can suddenly become so precious  when i am in my dorm.
they carry these special scent from home that make me feel so calm and reminds me of home when i munch on them  during midnight oil session. haha silly me.

heh, new hair cut =) hope it turn out to be something like this:

son hyuk lol XD

for you guy who didt know.
he's the anti-hero in athena
unlike stereotypical  cardboard villain. he is something different =)
hardship in life forced him to walk the path of no return.
but all he ever wanted was to earn his freedom from the organization
so that  he and hye-in could lead a normal life.
but that's not going to happen..
wished the ending was different though.

(although..i must admit the mousetache part is going to be difficult to imitate o.o)
 alright, back to reality. snap* snap*

I'ma find more people to collaborate next sem. [already have a few target >=) nyek nyek]

goodnight!

Its.. been a year =)

that's right, it have been a year since the first post of this blog.
This mean today is the 1 year anniversary of my little crapping box haha.
So..looking back at my coolection of posts (only 39 of them) ,
i can t help but to wonder what was i thinking at that time..
some time it's just silly.
but i can really say it's been a major year for me.
i did alot of thing i ve nvr dreamed of
went through queite a number of experince
be it bitter or sweet.

i've learned that sometimes thing just isnt what you think it is.
how the way some people look at thing is totally different than yourself.
and you cant your own perspective to assume matters of other people.

but most importantly..
i ve learn that
sometimes..if you could step out of your comfort zone instead of playing it safe all the time.
you might be pleasantly surprise at how rewarding it would be =)

some people might say its silly to express these kind of self-doubt
and to have so many question for the future.
they say it is time to grow up..
to be mature.. and to be always 100% sure about your action and your next step.

but, this also mean you will fail to notice any room for imporvement.
if being mature means being stuck in a state where everything is already certain..
i'd rather stay put on the process of growing up..

i guess you can call me a big baby if you wan..
but... i will never stop growing =) or at least i hope so.

Good night.

Someone like you, someone like me

someday.. someday, i will be good enough. =)
keep stepping forward*

and and oh. if everything goes perfectly i am starting my own online song cover soon
i ve always been admiring those people posting covers on youtube

@o@that's my definition of sexy!

keep wondering if i have any chance to meet more people like them in daily life

dont you think they are just so cool, talented and comfortable in their own skin?  =)

lots of the time they cover sounds even better than the original! (worship)

but i have a feeling that it will suck really bad if i try to make one 0.<

but whatever, i 'm not doing it for the views
but instead it serve as a huge motivation to upgrade my (non-existing >.<) skills to the next level
be it video, guitars, vocal
its definitely a good way to stay on track~

till then! =)

good night

Gotta love'em!

My, my Films that capture those innocent period of our life are sure getting popular these days---
however to be honest, i still prefer "First Love"
more than ''you are the apple of my eye"

probably because 那些年 tends to exaggerate lots of silly things like 打手枪 and 勃起 lolz

while  俩连这件小事 manage to focus on little things that matters a lot..
things like..
going to the toilet just to catch a glimpse of that person you like, leaving small present for them, act like you dont care when you are really jealous of something or even keeping a soda in a fridge and refusing to drink it because that special someone brought it for you.
yep, all those little thing that although seems simple.. but takes lots of courage to do =)

but still，那些年 is a great movie
it depends on which one is more relateable with your life i guess =)

and thanks longz for pointing out that the jacket that the girl wear resembles my course night jacket.
i guess the RXX store at jusco belakong stole the design from this movie and they modify the hook to be a little bit smaller and the fastener to be triangles instead of semi-oval.=.=

good job~we nailed the performance! =)

anyways aside from this
this two film do have the same theme

i realise that alot of thing comes down to miscommunication...

be it too much too soon or too little too late
once u didt express yourself clear enough
lots of crap will start happening
starting to get unsure
starting to second guess
starting to be suspicious
starting to 胡思乱想

 in the end... a simple thing can become so complicated

one point i don't understand  is why in the world will go pak tor with 阿何 for 5months
i think that is one big turning point in the story
i think its very wrong for  沈嘉宜 to do that
whether its an effort to make 柯腾 jealous
or to mend her broken heart
its just very...hmm i dunno.. =(

although 柯腾is immature in his own way with the fight competition and things..
but nonetheless.. he never resort to using other people as a rebound =)

then again.. i guess i'm not in position to judge anyone also la =P

but if there's one thing i know..
then it is... to always be straight forward
no games no playing hard to get

people say this kind of people will always 吃亏
i admit sometime it's true...
but.. i believe it will pay in the long run

after all..only things that can endure the flow of time are worth treasuring =)

if getting hurt every now and then...is what it take to find these things..
then count me in! =)
 人生就是不停的奋斗!


 
i'm sry.. but overall.. First Love is still my favourite flim down the memory lane =)
and.. that reminds me test 2 is slowly creeping up! O.<

Winter Child ♫♪

겨울에 태어난 아름다운 당신은
눈처럼 깨끗한 나만의 당신

하지만 봄, 여름과 가을, 겨울
언제나 맑고 깨끗해

겨울에 태어난 아름다운 당신은
눈처럼 깨끗한 나만의 당신

생일 축하합니다. 생일 축하합니다
생일 축하합니다. 당신의 생일을

Happy Birthday To You
(Happy Birthday To You)
Happy Birthday To You
(Happy Birthday To You)




*Voice that melts the toughest of masks
feels like everything will be alright*

happy 11.11.11 to all the winter child =)

Stay pretty, as always ★

aha finally can sit down and type adi  :P

its funny how sometime when you feel that tml is going to be a good day
but it turned out really bad

but when you feel like tml is going to be really lousy
everything turn out fine instead

그러나..
괜찮아 =)
these ups and down of life.
i already learn t how to laugh at it and accept it.

studies, assignments and stuff lidat keeps popping out
can really 影响 our mood
turning everyone into unhappy and nasty zombies
naturally
its  perfectly normal to feel kinda stuffy and trapped under all this crap..

but dont let it get into you

for better or worse it was going to happen anyway
so instead of feeling sorry for yourself
why not just face it all with a smile on your face? =)

maybe it will turn out to be a good day? you ll never know 

so remember to stay happy!
알았어??