Its almost the end of the month..and everyone is excited because pay day is almost here
but..for me.. it signals the end of my job
well..basiclly ..my elder brother will start his part time soon (next month) and the shop is too busy to be run by my parents alone..
so someone had to stay and help out..and that person happened to be me
i dont have any problem with that..
its just that..i was hoping to use this 4 months to help me reach my target for my personal saving before i am 25 years old which i set for myself
but..its okay, i understand..my parents really needed an extra hand..
but the good news is that i will have more time for myself =)
because..come to think of it..the working hour of my current job is way too long anyways..perhaps this is a good turn?
haha..i just cant believe that it would end so soon
i was just getting good at it..
i haven even got the chance to blog about it.. which i said i would
well..i guess that's one good example of why we should not hessitate about the thing we want to do..
because it could be gone before we knew it =/
Sometimes, all you have to do is look back
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Cake Dance~(on the road)
always thought delivering a cake...is..
well.. a piece of cake
but today i get to exprience it first hand - on my
co-worker's bike
never thought it would be that hard
the cake is wobbling like hell the whole time
and i struggled like a retard =.=
haha =) reminds me of an animation i saw when i was in form 3
it certainly brings back memory
Happy B-day, Mom
well.. a piece of cake
but today i get to exprience it first hand - on my
co-worker's bike
never thought it would be that hard
the cake is wobbling like hell the whole time
and i struggled like a retard =.=
haha =) reminds me of an animation i saw when i was in form 3
it certainly brings back memory
Happy B-day, Mom
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Of love and of loneliness
to be in love or to be lonely..
at a first glance, it appears that these two are the opposite of each other...
but actually....
these two are not related at all..
basicly..loneliness is created by our concious mind while true love is not sumthing that can be rationalised or reasoned
we dont go "owh, XXX always helped me when i am in trouble, so i decided to fall in love with XXX" it just doesnt work that way
love is......when you saw that special someone, your heart beats faster, you feel like your words doesnt come out right, and you either become too queit or too talkative..
you hard to act normal (>o<) but ended up acting like an idiot...
and you beat yourself over it after that (x.x)
and,and,and..you dont even care if his/her hair is in good shape today or wheater they 穿美美 or not
before you know it..you are smiling just out of nowhere
ya...its that feeling..=)
in short, incase of love...the feeling comes before the reasoning
loneliness on the other hand manifest itself only when we think about it
ok lets see an example =)
you are alone in your room..or.. you think that your handphone doesnt ring as much as other people..or..you think that you have noone to share your thoughts and... so on (there are just too many different forms of loneliness)
then your mind begin to reason and.. you decided that you are -in your own opinion-LONELY.
then the negative feeling kicks in..you are wondering why things are lidat...is there something wrong with you..why people can this and why people can that...etc..etc.etc
and finally they blame themself for everything when bad things happen..
then they withdraw themself from people..which cause them to feel more lonely and the cycle it goes on....
the thing is...there is nothing wrong with them and nothing to be blamed for =\
people are only as lonely as they think they are
and most of the time..they are not as lonely as they think
(heh...sry if it sounds confusing)
in the end... it all falls into what your think of yourself..
loneliness cannot be cured by surrounding yourself with 'friend', having fun 24/7 or having one lorry of of gf or bf.
it is after all.. in your mind.
speaking of bf/gf..
never make loneliness as an excuse to be in a relationship
it may take your mind of the feeling of loneliness for awhile
but the guilt willeat you alive 0.0
i know a couple of people who get in to a relationship just so that they could tell themself ''i have a gf/bf, i am not lonely ^^''
initially they seemed very happy but after sometime they discovered that the 'feeling' (yes, that special feeling =)) isn't really there..and realized that they got together for the wrong reason..
when they broke up..they get lonely...and they get into the wrong kind of relationship again..it like a never ending heart break =/
that is why the most important thing is... to just be yourself and be happy with it =)
and being happy is Not about being outgoing, overly friendly or talkative all the times
there is nothing wrong if you like to do things alone
everyone should learn to enjoy their own company
there is nothing wrong if you dont party day and night
it will start to feel meaningless after sometime
there is nothing wrong if you are quiet because you cant think of what to say
if you dont have anything to say in a conversation.. then dont..
listen to what other people are saying..
and say what comes naturally to you.
i personally think people who talk for the sake of talking very irritating..
they will do anything to keeep the conversation going..it like..if there's even one moment of silience the akwardness will kill them =.=
blah blah blah alot of 废话和鸟话 they ended up talking alot without saying anything.
if you are really confortable with that someone, you dont need to talk much and it would't feel akward as well.
it like...that time when your pa~ or ma~ or jie~ drove you home..you are feeling tired and not feeling like talking much.. you just glance at the passing view from the side window while they are driving witout saying anything..and yet.. there is not akwardness..
(haha sry.. i m just giving and example here..notice i didt put 'ko~' there because my brother driving skill is very gai =.= and i have to keep an eye on him when he drives)
everyone will sometimes, someday or eventually feel lonely and it is perfectly normal.
it is biologicaly progarmed in us to to feel that way so that could coexist instead of fighting to be the stand one standing (i know..i know... i sound like a geek now =.=)
so dont make a big deal out of it and dont let it takeover you
learn to love and be comfortable with yourself
then you can love others
不要被寂寞打败 =)
p/s : phew..longest post ever..=.= tml got work....oklah..i gtg get some shut eye first ZZzzz(thinking of blogging about my job in next post..but who knows~)*
at a first glance, it appears that these two are the opposite of each other...
but actually....
these two are not related at all..
basicly..loneliness is created by our concious mind while true love is not sumthing that can be rationalised or reasoned
we dont go "owh, XXX always helped me when i am in trouble, so i decided to fall in love with XXX" it just doesnt work that way
love is......when you saw that special someone, your heart beats faster, you feel like your words doesnt come out right, and you either become too queit or too talkative..
you hard to act normal (>o<) but ended up acting like an idiot...
and you beat yourself over it after that (x.x)
and,and,and..you dont even care if his/her hair is in good shape today or wheater they 穿美美 or not
before you know it..you are smiling just out of nowhere
ya...its that feeling..=)
in short, incase of love...the feeling comes before the reasoning
loneliness on the other hand manifest itself only when we think about it
ok lets see an example =)
you are alone in your room..or.. you think that your handphone doesnt ring as much as other people..or..you think that you have noone to share your thoughts and... so on (there are just too many different forms of loneliness)
then your mind begin to reason and.. you decided that you are -in your own opinion-LONELY.
then the negative feeling kicks in..you are wondering why things are lidat...is there something wrong with you..why people can this and why people can that...etc..etc.etc
and finally they blame themself for everything when bad things happen..
then they withdraw themself from people..which cause them to feel more lonely and the cycle it goes on....
the thing is...there is nothing wrong with them and nothing to be blamed for =\
people are only as lonely as they think they are
and most of the time..they are not as lonely as they think
(heh...sry if it sounds confusing)
in the end... it all falls into what your think of yourself..
loneliness cannot be cured by surrounding yourself with 'friend', having fun 24/7 or having one lorry of of gf or bf.
it is after all.. in your mind.
speaking of bf/gf..
never make loneliness as an excuse to be in a relationship
it may take your mind of the feeling of loneliness for awhile
but the guilt willeat you alive 0.0
i know a couple of people who get in to a relationship just so that they could tell themself ''i have a gf/bf, i am not lonely ^^''
initially they seemed very happy but after sometime they discovered that the 'feeling' (yes, that special feeling =)) isn't really there..and realized that they got together for the wrong reason..
when they broke up..they get lonely...and they get into the wrong kind of relationship again..it like a never ending heart break =/
that is why the most important thing is... to just be yourself and be happy with it =)
and being happy is Not about being outgoing, overly friendly or talkative all the times
there is nothing wrong if you like to do things alone
everyone should learn to enjoy their own company
there is nothing wrong if you dont party day and night
it will start to feel meaningless after sometime
there is nothing wrong if you are quiet because you cant think of what to say
if you dont have anything to say in a conversation.. then dont..
listen to what other people are saying..
and say what comes naturally to you.
i personally think people who talk for the sake of talking very irritating..
they will do anything to keeep the conversation going..it like..if there's even one moment of silience the akwardness will kill them =.=
blah blah blah alot of 废话和鸟话 they ended up talking alot without saying anything.
if you are really confortable with that someone, you dont need to talk much and it would't feel akward as well.
it like...that time when your pa~ or ma~ or jie~ drove you home..you are feeling tired and not feeling like talking much.. you just glance at the passing view from the side window while they are driving witout saying anything..and yet.. there is not akwardness..
(haha sry.. i m just giving and example here..notice i didt put 'ko~' there because my brother driving skill is very gai =.= and i have to keep an eye on him when he drives)
everyone will sometimes, someday or eventually feel lonely and it is perfectly normal.
it is biologicaly progarmed in us to to feel that way so that could coexist instead of fighting to be the stand one standing (i know..i know... i sound like a geek now =.=)
so dont make a big deal out of it and dont let it takeover you
learn to love and be comfortable with yourself
then you can love others
不要被寂寞打败 =)
p/s : phew..longest post ever..=.= tml got work....oklah..i gtg get some shut eye first ZZzzz(thinking of blogging about my job in next post..but who knows~)*
Monday, May 16, 2011
Thursday, May 5, 2011
우리 둘만의~Sweet Holiday
Phew finally 2nd sem is officially over
annoucing the begining of 4 months of holiday
Oh yeah, still remember the debate on what to do with all the time?
I think will be doing all of them! =)
oh, and and..My part time job will start tml
basicly, some motorcycle shop tauke need someone to work on their account
and .. i have always wanted to try my hands on 做账.. new skill ftw!
but i think the pay isnt going to be too good though..
because it depend on the work load and hour..no bill..no pay =(
but the upside of this is that the place is very near to my house which is why i think that i should be able to do my own thing when i get back home.
Well, anyways let's see how it turned out first.
actually i wanted to write more..but for now i still need to arrange my stuff first x.x
good luck for those still having exams okay? and take care =)
annoucing the begining of 4 months of holiday
Oh yeah, still remember the debate on what to do with all the time?
I think will be doing all of them! =)
oh, and and..My part time job will start tml
basicly, some motorcycle shop tauke need someone to work on their account
and .. i have always wanted to try my hands on 做账.. new skill ftw!
but i think the pay isnt going to be too good though..
because it depend on the work load and hour..no bill..no pay =(
but the upside of this is that the place is very near to my house which is why i think that i should be able to do my own thing when i get back home.
Well, anyways let's see how it turned out first.
actually i wanted to write more..but for now i still need to arrange my stuff first x.x
good luck for those still having exams okay? and take care =)
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