I'm sorry

real woman don't play silly insecure games
and real man don't fall for mind games.
 it's just a waste of time.
you've got to show that you're a classy, confident lady that knows what she wants =)


then again..
life's too short for fake smile,
that's why you don't see me pretending to be smiling and care free about it.
imma keep a poker face -.-

i'm sorry..

anyways.. have fun.

make every smile in your life counts =)


good night!

Hello to myself

Hello, this is February 2012, a very cold winter
Where are you - how close are you
To the dream that I wanted so bad?

Here, I'm still falling and crying again
I'm hurt and tired and have no strength to get up
But you would probably see me and smile.

Hello to myself, hello to myself
Will you comfort me, saying don't cry?
Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you tell me that I can do it?
Hello hello - don't cry - Hello hello - get up!

How are you - how is it to fulfill your dream?
Doesn't it hurt when you pinch yourself?
Or is it sometimes boring because it's become a normal routine for you?
If you ever get lonely and tired,
will you remember me, who used to dream here?

Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you think of me here and smile?
Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you be happy to the point where your heart overflows?
Hello hello, smile - Hello hello, just like that.

Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you think of me here and smile?
Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you not forget me, who used to dream?

A Trip Down The Memory Lane part 2

         Another holidays come and go, and a new sem is beginning soon.
I spent these last few days packing my thing. rearranging notes for my juniors,.. trying to figure out what i really need to bring and things lidat.

Then in the mist of the mess, i came across silly things that brought up the nostalgic side of me.

Stuffs like my orientation photo, course group photo, surat kehilangan metric card, event tickets,
gift boxes.

  my very first taekwondo grading cert..

those old  sem1 sem2 stuffs to the more recent event like..

 order and planning draft for HangFook tangyuan..

crazy pesta tanglung script that can easily induce headace..

There are a handful of silly leftover document like this and i've decided to put them all in a 'memory folder'.

like literally, lol :P

         And oh, and then there's the first sets of stage lights i made, now lies idle in the store room. waiting for another moment to shine again, and maybe collecting dust in the meantime. ~.~

         Maybe i will just pass them to the juniors next sem. I hope it still works though. It's, after all it's desgined using whatever knowledge that is left of kemahiran hidup in form 3.

haha yep, those good old time of playing carpenter in the bengkel. =.= 


         Anyways, i know for a fact that, some years from now, way are after i ended my study, i would go through these things and recall the moments again.

         Or.. perhaps i would meet an untimely death and brings the memories with me. After all, we can never know whats going to happen the next. do we? =)

Frankly speaking, despite the optimistic and go-getter attitude..
I mean, although i'm always looking forward to the future.
I cant deny that i spent quite some time looking back to the past as well.

         Of course...not all memory is going to be perfect and flawless. They can be bitter or sweet, or maybe even a mixture of both. This is only natural, being young and stupid, we are all bound to make mistakes or missing opportunities that we will come to regret later.

But regardless, the years spent in uni, are probably gonna be the some of the best years of my life. =)

Good Night.

Down with fever =o=

Sickly face
bad bad timing

it'll just have to wait -.-''

 what the hell, made it anyway =)
Valentine - Kina Grannis

Happy Valentine!

Always.. ❤

If I..
should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go
but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way.

And I..will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you need.

And I.. will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.

if only my vocals were good enough, i will definitely make a cover on your behalf.
but at last I'm not at that level yet..
maybe someday.. =)
i promise.
Bye and...thankyou  (◕‿◕)

Good night.

Broken Smile

its good to stay positive

but putting up a smile when you are really not okay,

can be very unhealthy 

or is it its human nature, to hide uncomfortable things away.. =/

a friend used to tell me
if u deny a feeling, it actually takes you longer to get over it.
in the end, people who manage to move on are people who embrace it

for the other group that can act as if nothing happened
these people may look tough on the outside
but they are the one is easily hurt/have been hurt before
fearing the unknown and wanting to always be in control of their emotion

they can put on a mask all they want,
but in the inside.. they are not going anywhere...
becuase they've refused to accept it in the first place =(

so, next time if u spot a friend putting up a tough mask..
tell him its okay to feel vulnerable very now and then,
becuase each and everyone of us is no superman,
in fact, even superman have his kryptonite
if you fell, i'm there to catch you =)
so stop being such a tough-ass! XP


"but be careful though..
they don't like people to know, that's why they hide it in the first place
so..they might be defensive about it.
you need to let them know that you are sincere in hearing them out"

i used to wonder what broken smile actually is

now i know.

gotta learn to let it out, got it?

alright,  what am i talking about in this joyous season =.=

Happy Chinese New Year chingus

working on a supprise right now..=)

stay tuned!

good night.

New Year-First Step

2012 is here! i already made my first step to this year resolution - making song covers =)

Dedicated Count on Me by Bruno Mars to my friends.
I must say the new mic was really fun~

 anyways, back to uni today,
hmm the thing about returning to college is that i am really going to miss home.
it just feels different here. the atmosphere.
to counteract this anxiety, i always bring something from home to college whenever i can
apples, oranges, bread, simple things like this can suddenly become so precious  when i am in my dorm.
they carry these special scent from home that make me feel so calm and reminds me of home when i munch on them  during midnight oil session. haha silly me.

heh, new hair cut =) hope it turn out to be something like this:

son hyuk lol XD

for you guy who didt know.
he's the anti-hero in athena
unlike stereotypical  cardboard villain. he is something different =)
hardship in life forced him to walk the path of no return.
but all he ever wanted was to earn his freedom from the organization
so that  he and hye-in could lead a normal life.
but that's not going to happen..
wished the ending was different though.

(although..i must admit the mousetache part is going to be difficult to imitate o.o)
 alright, back to reality. snap* snap*

I'ma find more people to collaborate next sem. [already have a few target >=) nyek nyek]

goodnight!